SHIT!
WHY AM I STILL THINGKING OF HIM?
I HAVE TO FORGET HIM SOON!!!!!!!!!!!

hi !
Long time i never edit my blog,i`m back now.....and i`m totally different.
it is true i still can`t forget him,but i know that he`s not back with his ex.But i know he`s close with a girl now.But were just fine,we`re friends now,i can`t beleive that too....but we`re friends now.
and i also promised to myself that i will forget him,and starting our friendship......pure friend.
He`s taking the same subject at university,we meet almost everyday....can u imagine that?But we`re firneds now...i know that and ...
it doesn`t feel that hurt anymore............
i`ve made up my mind....we`re only friends.....
well...i think that`s all

i finnaly breaking up with my boyfriend
i love him much
but he dumped me
he`s back with his ex

i feel so lonely now

sometimes i feel
i want to die....but i know it`s stupid

i don`t know.......
i just wish that i`ll
meet mr.right as soon as possible
i`m so sad
i taught i can forget him
but i couldn`t......yet
but i will and i have to forget him.............
this life is so empty

well.......i thought he could change
after i say all the things that make me sad......i`m so dissapointed of him
he doesn`t understand me at all
he blame me b cos i`m proud of him
what`s wrong with that???so what if i`m proud of him???
i just don`t get it
i`m so confused....and i feel....useless for him
all the things i`ve said.......he never at least think about it
he likes to be alone......
maybe i have to make his wish come true.....to let him alone........
without me.......
i`m so dissapointed of him.......it always be like this.....again...and again..

Wuff.......again and again....today...i`m late for my session again....last night i go home on 1.30 am....crazy huh.For a university student like me...working until late in the......morning?well.....u see...urgent job...and it have to be finished by tomorrow.So....when i got home i only can wash my face...change my cloth then got to bed.I woke up on 9 am and i`m late...so here i am in my office again.Today i`m designing layout of autoblizz...my new job which i mentioned in the past blog.But my head is a little bit dizzy...i don`t know...maybe this b`cos i havent got enouh sleep last night.I hope i can get home soon and then sleep well.I can`t be late tomorrow...i hope so.I haven`t seen my bf for two days....and he haven`t call me yet......i don`t like this....i don`t know how long i can stand this.i don`t know......he`s too busy with himself....how long i can stand.....
Hey...i`m surfing the web and found out about this award.....webbies award....award for the great homepage...www.webbies.com
and also....if u want to see something cute and fun....try this.....www.youchan.com.....using flash....it`s interactive and cool.....cute....i like it so much

Hattsiiiiiiiinnnnnnngggggggg!!!!!!!........whoops ...sorry....i`m sneezing......this b`cos i had a bad cold.And i hate it very very much.......nobody likes desease(of course).Well i woke up this morning and i`m not feeling so good at all.......i had these crazy colds since two days ago....altough i had drunk some medicine last night.....but this cold is still stuck on me....gosh!! i hope i get cured immidiately....i hope so.I`m not attending my class today...at my campus....well i`m late and i decide to go to my office.I`m working in a webdesign company,with a low salary....but hey...at least i have a salary right?and with that money...i can pay my campus fee...buying some clothes....shoes....nice sunglasses.....etc.But...sometimes....i just saved it on my piggybank.I`m 19 years old now...(well....i`ll be 19 in a few more day.....on may`26 actually :) and i feel i`m so lucky i have these cool jobs.I have a great boss....he always understand that i`m still have lots of classes to attend,and he wont remind about my attending at the office....but he just hold on a result oriented(i`m sorry bout my english....i`m still learning actually).And i also have a great news....i just got a new job......beside my old job....so i have 2 jobs now...with 2 different salary....horraayyyy!!well...hope i can do it success.My company site is http://www.angin.com/ if u like to visited and knowing more about it......i also have design some site like......www.idaman.com......www.idaman.com/asri.......www.idaman.com.gappi......i also created the mascot and stationery for my company...u can see the mascots at angin`s webpage.I also like create animation using flash....i like to learn about lots of things.well...now i`m still designing a thailand restaurant site......hope i`ll finished it soon.....i`ll tell u when the site is coming online :)